to find a purpose

Backlit sign that says This Is Who I Am

I was a little lost this week trying to find inspiration for a piece. I came up with no emotions, wreckage, or anything. All I found this week was a little introspection into questioning who I am, and where I am in life. Sometimes, that is just fine to do. The confusion we feel right now will only bring us understanding later in life. And maybe, sometime soon, I’ll understand.


I don’t really know what to write today
Because I normally feel inspired by something I see
Or hear
Or feel 
Or imagine
But today I find myself a little lost

I don’t really know what I’ll do tomorrow
Because I have a thousand things that I need to do 
Or clean
Or pay
Or go to 
But today I came out empty-handed

I don’t really know what my purpose is sometimes
Because I’m not sure what I have to offer that this world needs
Or would be better because of
Or help another person
Or even really care about
But maybe I’ll know what that is tomorrow

I don’t really know if I’m enough sometimes 
Because I find that I am not enough for myself 
Or for my parents
Or my friends
Or my professors
But maybe I’ll realize that I am sometime soon

I don’t really know who I am all the time
Because sometimes I find myself questioning if I’m doing the right thing
Or right job
Or right major
Or right path in life
But I think I am getting somewhere

I don’t really know what the future holds
I don’t even know what tomorrow holds
I just hope that for today, just myself will suffice

I don’t know exactly who I am yet
But that is just okay with me
Because where I am right now is where I need to be 
To be who I need to be for the next chapter in my life 

Kara Allen is a CSU Public Relations Assistant and is currently a Senior studying Communications at Minnesota State Mankato. Kara is from Grand Rapids, MN and has grown up loving to write in her free time; finding the hidden idiosyncrasies within herself through the writing. She plans on pursuing a career in Public Affairs for the U.S. Army and continuing on with writing for enjoyment.


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